Ignore This Post (yeah, like that will work...)

So as promised, I wrote like a madperson, 5000 words at a time. I'm over 30,500 as I type this, my goal for today was 35,000, and I don't know if I can bring myself to get there. Maybe it's the surge of writing madness over the past few days that has me feeling a little "meh" today, or maybe it's the second thoughts I've been having about this story. Freakhouse just seemed so right. I don't remember wondering if I should just quit and never let the world read it. I'm wondering if I'm trying to hard with Parish. If the only reason I'm writing it is because I feel like some not-yet-existing reader is going to demand closure and I feel obligated to provide some. The pieces just aren't falling into place like I want them to, and I don't feel as excited about it as I think I should. Too many things floating around in my brain right now, so many things about writing Parish when what I should be doing is basking inside the world of Parish. Maybe Freakhouse will be a one-shot after all, I just don't know at this point. 

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As I'm trying to think about what to write for this post (feeling guilty that I've abandoned this too), I have a sudden thought... I don't know if it will work, and it will require pretty much re-writing all 30,000+ words if I do this, but maybe, just maybe it might be the answer I'm looking for...

Sorry about the random cryptic stream of consciousness, but this is partially why I thought about blogging. I needed to start writing in a flow (unlike what I've been doing all feakin' day). Spontaneous writing is so wonderful for that. So, please forgive this post. It was meant for me and now I've got a job to do!